But I have promises to keep

Dated – February, 2011

It is February already. Guess I am a tad late for resolutions, but I did start writing this post sometime in Jan. That does count for something eh? 🙂 So here goes another long list of things I might not end up doing this year..or might just 🙂

I’ll be good. Not the jerk you knew last year. 🙂 Or before that. And by the end of it, if you still don’t like me, maybe we are not the kind of people who would click 😉

I’ll jog. On roads. Get that expensive pair of shoes which won’t let my knees go bust. I’ll plug in Knopfler and shut everything out. And then I’ll run. That one hour will be mine. Absolutely selfishly mine.

I’ll be a little less blunt. Only a little, mind you. Apparently, people don’t like it too much. Wonder why. Guess honesty IS a little overrated. If I were you, I would be betting my money against this resolution for sure.

I’ll invent this shield (literal one) which can deflect all forms of pressure that comes with being single and on the wrong side of 25. As a forewarning, it might shoot you down if you come close with questions like ‘So, when do you plan to settle down…2011..2012..2050?’. More realistically, I’ll just curse you with my black tongue 😀

I’ll manage money better. Where does my paycheck go..really! One day I see this cool looking number and then like terrible dark magic, its just gone! 😦 So I am going to consciously save. Not for rainy days. But for my next resolution.

I’ll travel. I have this entire wishlist of places. Independence is a good ingredient for one’s travel plans. All I need to figure out is how to convince the company (I mean travelling company :))

I push people away. For no good reason. This year, I’ll hold them close. You know that person who won’t take calls for days and months and build this world-proof wall all around. And then stay within that isolation chamber for a long long time. That person is me. I wouldn’t put up with myself when like that, no reason why anyone else should. 🙂 So yeah, I’ll call you next time I am down and out.

I’ll judge a little less. Ummmm okay..scrap this one. How does one ever stop judging! People who claim they don’t are lying piteously. I know I judge all the time. I judge people by their shoes, their sense of humour, their taste in alcohol (you are in my good books in case of scotch, beer and wine :P) and a zillion other things. Won’t divulge too much. Don’t want you in my head. 🙂

Stop being needy. Quoting straight from someone’s blog – You know how dogs can sense fear? Well, we humans can sense neediness. Its okay to be alone. And its commendable to be comfortable with only yourself for company. Might not last too long, but one should try..I think.

Remember birthdays! Can’t tell you how much I suck at it. Or maybe you do know. For the record, I am absolutely okay with you not wishing me on my birthday. 🙂 But yes, I am going to try remembering yours. Even if I (or my call) don’t make it to the phirang 00:00 am wish, sometime during the day you shall hear from me.

Procrastinate less. 

I could go on and on. And some more. We keep trying to change something or the other about ourselves. The new year just brings around an excuse to take stock. At the end of the day, there is only that much that we can change about ourselves consciously. Rest is all evolution. 🙂