The year that was..

Dated – January, 2010

I learnt diplomacy last year. Here’s an example. If you ask me, how was the year that went by, my reply would be – Good and bad..in bits and parts. πŸ™‚ The 2008 me would’ve grinned and said ‘quite awesome!’. Like the child Β who burns his hand, yells his lungs out and then forgets it all as soon as he sees a bar of chocolate, I would forget the lows and stick to my reply. The 2009 me is not an improved version at all. Life is still all hunky dory and I still think that there is a silver lining behind the darkest of clouds. But yes, I learned diplomacy. So the year was a mixed bag of sorts.So I take stock now. A checklist of things that I was supposed to do. Things I wanted to do. Things I shouldn’t have done.

Studied – Hell no! It took me an MBA and an obscene amount of money to realise that I can study no more. Just wrote my last paper and swore to myself to never touch those darned things again! I can read but not study, and there is an ocean of difference between the two. Learned nothing from my post grad degree and I do hope my current employer doesn’t come across this blog of mine. πŸ™‚
Got a job. My justification for the obscene amount of money I mentioned before. πŸ™‚ Its a blessing to get exactly what you want and I am blessed.
Read books – Sadly no. Don’t judge me. I love books. This year just whizzed by and I have read a measly few. But am back with new resolve. Got a long list to finish.
Travelled – A hell lot! New cities and old ones too. With friends, with family..for work, for fun…for no reason. Β  Chennai, Bangalore, Pondicherry, Kolkata, Bombay, Karwar, Sikkim, Darjeeling, Pune…phew! Loved every bit of it. Something about new places..their idiosyncrasies..their eccentricities..the people..I could really travel for a living! πŸ™‚
Friends – Met some and lost some. Some law of balancing the good with the bad I presume. Met some awesome people. I mean really, can’t remember what life was like before knowing them. πŸ™‚ (Here’s to you – S and Saantu!). The ones I knew before came closer. The ones who had drifted away drifted right back in. Some people went away, out of reach. Such is life. Black, white and grey.
Love – Happens year after year. I’ve realised I don’t just like people (that is, when I do like them), I fall in love with them. Some particular trait, the way they care, the way they are. Can be anything. So yes, I fall in love again and again. I am emotional and I get involved. I am pretty hopeless. πŸ™‚ I like it.
Danced till there was music. Danced like no one’s watching.
Became a recluse. Not intentional, but somehow got comfortable in my corner. Its a good thing, to be able to spend a day alone and still come out of it smiling.
Flirted/Dated – Yes yes :). Good for health, they say. πŸ˜‰
Cried – Like a baby. Over lost hopes. Over mushy movies. Over the absence of close ones. Over goodbyes. In fights where anger comes out as tears. In silence when eyes talk.Β Over nothing. I just cry easy.
Tried getting over my fear of height and water. Been years, still struggling. Floated around in the middle of the ocean (wearing a lifejacket), if that counts for anything. But the heights and depths of it still gets to me.
Stayed fit – No no and no! 😦 Being a Bong so does not help the cause. We Bongs get high on food. Good food and lack of physical exercise. Not good. Not good at all! I need to go on a war footing to cure this.
Survived on music. Like air and water. The first thing I did when I woke up and the last thing when I slept off. Listen to music. So, thank you to the likes of Pearl Jams and the odd Pitbulls for replacing the silence with rhythm. πŸ™‚
Wrote – Yes, more than often. Sometimes on blogs. Sometimes to myself. On tissue papers. In notebooks.
Grew up – The age bit, inevitable! The mind bit, avoidable! πŸ™‚ I’ll focus on the latter. Learned a li’l, grew up a li’l. Threw tantrums like a child, but still managed the occasional grown up’s view of the world. That view is just shortlived though. Coz like Bryan Adams croons, I wanna be young for the rest of my life! πŸ˜‰
Like I said, its been a good and a bad year..in bits and parts. I will choose to remember the times that I smiled. I will hope to learn from the mistakes I made. I will revel in the happiness and I will forget the tears. For those I hurt, I am sorry. For those I loved, I am all mush. Live with it. For those I yelled at, it was just a moment. Never meant it. For those I forgot, call me and tell me I’m a jerk. For those I call friends, thank you. For everything.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

Blog at WordPress.com.

Up ↑

%d bloggers like this: